I feel like?

I feel right now like Ned Flanders from "The Simpsons"...

who also btw owns a store known as "The Leftorium" where there are special products for left handers :)

Sweetest thing

Had gone the other day to get my french beard trimmed at the barbers. The one I normally go was there in the shop as usual. The guy was on the phone with his wife in the village. So while trimming my beard with the machine he was humming to her on the phone " Kabhie Kabhie Mere Dil Main...Khayaal Aata hain". I being scared that the beard will get ffed up asked him to pay attention. He did so and the entire thingie was over in 5 minutes. I gave him the money and got out. He still continued humming the tune to her and told me she misses me a lot cause there's no one around. So I try do this every now and then to cheer her up....

At some level it was the sweetest thingy somebody can do for someone :) really really really sweet ...!!!

Rastaman signing off!!

Mumbai Story

It actually feels like Steve Martin from L.A. Story in an uncanny sorta way. I have found myself taking advice from the most inane of sources and most of it is actually working out in a way. There is this pop up for horoscope of the day which comes up on the igoogle page which doles out advice for free. Decided to follow it a coupla times and the day actually turned out to be ok. Its just like Steve Martin taking advice from the signboard and it actually working out for him. A la in the same way have been doing the same and it seems to be working till now. I know it sounds ludicrous but then who was in for any sorta rationality :) rastaman signing off!!

Scarry

It is so scary to see nice nice people around you finishing last ...and actually worse than that :(

Not a nice day :(

Why is it?

Why is it that fat that takes so little time to add on seems to take an age to go off.. :(

Forrest

Had gone jogging the other day to the beach. Once was finished with that started to do some stretching exercises. While doing the exercises saw a small little ladybird beetle perched on my t-shirt. The moment I went to touch it..it started to fly away is that same zig-zag fashion as the feather in the last scene of Forrest Gump. Mebbe its time to just let go of many things and watch the feather fly and create a path of its own :)

Responsibility

So Just felt like talking about responsibility today. Its been approximately a year and half since I had to take it up. My default personality orientation is that of a Goan ( I am one too !!!). The chief driving force for our philosophy being 'If someone else is doing it..then why should I'. So it used to be around the house i.e. with paying the bills, running the small errands and all the other small things. Then Dad fell sick and passed away. He would take care of all the things to be done. Suddenly all of these things just got thrust upon me at once. It was tough enough with dealing with the loss but these small things just made things just that wee bit more tougher. I have never lived away from home. This felt just like that and in ways it was just like that. So I just lost it in the middle which started reflecting just about everywhere from work, to personal life, friends and other facets of life. I just drove headlong into work cause there was not other avenue to let out all the steam and provide solace. More than year later woke up one fine day to discover that nothing was in order. Health was going down the drain, I had no time to spend to myself, there were so many things to be done and I was doing none of those at all which only served to piss off the matriarch.

I was just sitting tight on my growing bottom procrastinating which was having a catalytic effect. Just when I thought I was just losing it things slowly started to improve. I did not see it coming but slowly I started learning to manage running a home. I finally got down to knowing the finer nuances of running a home which included realization that the sugar,salt tea, masalas, detergents and soaps do not magically replenish themselves at the end of the month. Small things like paying the bills on time also came after some time. Also discovered that running a full fledged home where you are cooking everyday is not the easiest of tasks and really takes some doing. I've actually learnt to do some basic cooking by myself now like an omelette, dal, even rice and can atleast subsist if no one is around (Good start considering I could not even light a gas stove at one point of time :)).

The main discovery is that taking repsonsiblity actually makes one feel good more so about oneself. I feel a much more independent person now. All of us have that inertia that makes us want to not change the state we are in. Once you can get past that stage it does get better. You just to be a little persistent. The same goes with everything in life I presume.

Solution for the Blues

What is the best solution for beating away the blues?
Songs of Ray Charles playing and a glass of good Port Wine :)

Virtues

Patience
You learn that waiting for the whole day outside a government officials office only for Sahib to grant you an audience at the end of the day for 5 minutes

Perseverance
You learn that by following up for bills with the government clients and have to like call the whole building to get out your bills

Tolerance
You learn that when you bust you arse and finally all the analysis is just ridiculed and subject to the dustbin

More on other virtues laters as well as the trip of Johannesburg